Now is a Time for New Beginnings

Well . Hello everyone .
I wanted to share about the surprising changes in my life.
Everything started about a month ago , when I started to think about my life and where to get extra money . I was thinking about investment , such as bitcoin . My little sister called me and , because I was better educated when it comes to PC , she asked me about my thoughts and ideas about these bitcoins . I didn`t know that much at that point and asked my co-worker to assist and enlighten me .
On the next day , my  former classmate called me and said that he have a business opportunity for me . All I wanted to add on that was “I`m 33 and you think you can fool me just like that ? ” , but instead I said ” I`m listening” .
He was talking about a company called Zinzino , which was working on/with food supplement and not only . Then we started to talk about health and fitness ,about lifestyle and such . After a while I realized how terrible I am at all these things . I know , my classmate did the best , he wanted to sell me the product , but he sold me an idea instead. The company`s logo is “Inspire change in life” .
I have bought this and that and got my package .
I got mostly all the products they provide and started slowly but surely get to know about the stuff .
I started with Lean shakes because I wanted to go to the gym but I was so slothful and also my PC constantly distracted me from trying to be healthy , you know.
So after this , I start to wake up 8.00-8.30 am and go to the gym on daily basis . I also started to drink fish oil and Vitamins provided .And now , after a month , I started to feel that I like this routine . I must admit , I don`t think that that very Lean shake or Vitamins made these changes in me , but it was ME who made all the work and changes . And adore this idea . You know , we live in the world where most of the things are working or happening automatically , you go to work , you eat , you rest , watch TV , drink something , talk to people , go to sleep , and it is all over again . And that happen on daily basis ,when you only wake up after the midday on Weekend and start to think what to do.
But now I am feeling that I am able to change things every day . It`s hard to explain ..
It is the same feeling when you have a long long holiday and you know that you can do anything and everything , you are not tied to anything ,you are free to go and do whatever you want to . And this feeling I feel every second .
I also always dreamed about riding a motorbike , I have told about that to all my friends and they were laughing at me , saying “When man makes plans , God laughs” . But now I have already finished my CBT( baby steps for riding a motorbike) and will pass my exam next month . I am checking the motorbikes now and willing to get one after I pass the test. And that feeling that everything goes my way .. it`s indescribable .
I like it . I like it a lot .
Today , for example ,I start checking my blood result(I did a test a couple of weeks ago in order to know where am I on Omega-3/6/9 level ) , wanted to know what  each acid means and such . Then I started to develop this a bit and checked each of minerals from Xtend (25+ minerals and vitamins) pills ,and  now I have about 5 tabs 😀
After this started to read about about vegan diet because ton of people are concerned about their health and well-being and ,all of a sudden,become as vegetarians or vegans  .. well , tough stuff I have to admit .
After all that, I have found on NHS site about Vitamins , B vitamins particularly . And it went further – The vegan diet , because they have lack of calcium (in fact , i have found this “brown and white bread (in the UK, calcium is added to white and brown flour by law)”,which surprised me a bit) and phosphorus ,both are important for our bones.
I returned after the gym around 5 pm , drunk a coffee and wanted to play some games… that is what was NOT happened  😀
I think I will start to post more about the product itself , because in my opinion , it`s worth it .
Here are some of their products – I`ll show you all the components what these two products(Xtend – vitamins ; Lean shake – building muscle and reducing weight) have :


If you get inspired by this post , please , hit me and I will tell you all you want to hear or to share with you with more 🙂

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The loneliness .

 

This is the feeling what every person on Earth have felt at least once .
And we all know how it feels .Even though we all “connected” through the internet. Many people are using the communication sources (such as Tumbrl, Facebook,Whatsapp,Gumtree – the list is endless) are trapped in that [spider] web. People are looking for something.For someone. Because of the loneliness.
And ,unfortunately,we get used to feel it here and there.
Some people are posting about their miserable life and all they want is to get some response – whether it is negative or positive .It is the scream of the desperation. It is sad. Yesterday , when I checked one profile at Tumbrl , I saw the author who made a video where she was crying into the camera and sarcastically said “This was a very nice day.I`m looking forward what brings tomorrow” . And I felt so sad about her. Yes,perhaps she also have the “haters” and “lovers” on that site.But ..mostly,in her life,in her real life , the only people who she meet are haters.Stupid little bas*ers ,who doesn`t know what is what(yet). It`s sad. Very very sad. I bet, it is because of the loneliness .
The loneliness is everywhere around us .Wherever we go, whatever we do(at this point it`s careless,but still). We thought that the global web will rally us,will change us somehow,people will communicate much better.But ,as they say , there is two sides of every story. It made us to be distant one to each other. It bring such saying as “personal distance” into our life. Oh well.
You know.. talking about myself here,I`m very talkative person . I don`t know , maybe it`s addiction , I can`t live without it , I can`t survive without cheering someone`s up , without teaching someone how to live the better life,how to fix this and that. No,don`t get me wrong , I just like to understand how people think and act. What exactly urges them to do this or that. Maybe I am just curious .. or curious too much, I don`t know. Anyway.
Reputedly , Christmas is the day for the whole family , when they can/have to set aside all the troubles between the family members,sit at the table and eat their humble pie , trying to enjoy this Christmas eve or the day after that.
Yes , I feel a bit lonely . Not because of my sister, who went to visit her ..erm.. friend.Not because of my family , who are just in a distance of the call. Not because of my ex-girlfriend who always is happy to talk to me and have a laugh and such. Not because of the other people who may unwillingly respond on my text messages because they are polite or ”nice”. It`s just the feeling of loneliness..when you ask yourself who you are and what you will leave after you are gone?
I miss that feeling when I could look at my bf and she smiled me back(It`s silly confession to make , I know.But I don`t care). This was when I was in relationships , but even later.It was sort of connection. Connection not like we “have” 900 “friends” on Facebook. Not when we meet someone outside the work and smile and have a small talk which can end you know where. That connection has an intimacy. And I miss that.
The last year for me was a disaster. Complete disaster. Irregardless of what I have just said ,that was a good experience .And I went through it,so it wouldn`t be fair if I call it as complete disaster. My point was,even though I had very bad period of time,now I am still alive and productively working on my targets,which were English and job. Now,when I feel much more confident in both subjects, I think it`s time for me to think about ways how I can rid of loneliness. The next year will be special for me , my dear readers. The next year will bring me something especially beautiful and dearest. Whether you with me or not. Whether the so changing English weather or “the weather”into my life. I will work hard to get this done and ,rest assured,I will get what I want. But till that time , oh , loneliness, be my guest and have a cup of English tea with me . Be with me to make me stronger. Be with me to prepare me . Be with me just because you are the part of the circle of life. Stay with me for now, I don`t want to be alone.

 

 

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P.S. this topic wasn`t ,in general , about the loneliness . It was mostly about my feelings. Personal feelings ,which every person has experienced at least  once in their life.

Pod cast .

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Jennifer : Hello and good afternoon everyone . Today , we are going to talk about the families and the issues which they facing during activities altogether. With me , as usual , our master of the profound knowledge of our social behaviour , my colleague and a very good friend – Craig Monnoc.

Craig : Well, actually , I just have completed the Doctoral Degree requirements , hence I`m a doctor now.

Jennifer : Ah , I see. Anyways , we have a guest today . Richard , could you tell me something about yourself ?

Richard : Hey there. What do you want to talk about ,mate ? I`d say that I`m 18 , me and my parents are from London and we lived there together before I was dropped from the nest by,so to speak , beloved parents .I`m the only child . My mom`s name is Chloe and my father is Richard , as myself.

Jennifer: Alright , lets get it started . Today we are going to talk about an issue related to family holidays. Simply put , we have all the tools required for this , on the left hand side we have an omniscient and omnipotent expert , who will explain us how our brains rule the world . In the right corner we have a youngster , who`s willing to open our eyes on some very crucial things ,notwithstanding on his young age,I bet he knows what he`s talking about.

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Richard : Erm.. thank you .. I guess. Yes, I`m only 18 but I`ve already seen so much misbehavior by my parents , that I`d pray a God to send me a fire-sword to release righteous anger on them!

Craig: Calm down , Richard.By the way , can I use your short name and call you Dick? I know you are mad on your parents , which is understandable . Although , we are not here to curse them but to point on their own mistakes and to try somehow change this situation. Imagine , that your story here and your perspective could drastically change the way how parents think . For instance, you would be a blessing for every young parents who would soak up all you`re telling us about and could help their kids to grow in better environment.

Richard : Hm.. now it doesn`t sounds that bad from this position .. Anywho..

Jennifer: Richard , could you tell us about your first or second holiday with your parents ? What was it and tell us about how you felt it ?

Richard: I think, I can do that . The first holiday , what really matters for me was when I was 8.Me and my parents went to Cyprus.

Craig: I bet there was hot .

Richard: Yes, it was . And then all the things starts to happen .It was too blooming hot for me! I don`t know what they`ve been thinking .. Apparently , senile dementia is responsible . I wanted to hide from the sun in our hotel room but they kept saying “Richard, we came here for you – enjoy the sun and the beach before you get back and hit the English weather”. But it was obvious to me that they rather wanted to come there for their own sake and secondly, to torture me by the natural force . When I finally was sent off , I went to our hotel room where I couldn`t do anything . The boredom was killing me because my smart parents “forgot” to take all my consoles . I knew they did it accidently on purpose.

Jennifer: What a terrible first expression , I must admit. Craig, do you have anything to say about this ?

Craig : Oh , yeah , in fact , I do . Dick , as you mentioned before, you are the only child . So your parents don`t have such experience in order to give all you need. As you know , It’s so difficult nowadays to part from our gadgets – they practically run our lives! But by taking back control and restricting the time you use them, it could make for a much better night’s sleep and get you there quicker! So maybe it was sort of lesson for you to start doing something what matters for you .In your parent`s childhood was no phones or consoles.And they have found their niche and entertained themselves differently . I don`t think you got the idea right , I mean they really want you to see the world in different colors,don`t you see it?

Richard: Well, I do , but still . They should been thinking about all this and to explain me this by giving another example. Anyway . I didn`t know what to do , so I went downstairs and started to talk to porter , you know , just to shoot the breeze , as our American cousins are fond of saying. So we were having a good time , this guy was telling me so much about the hotel and such . But this fun ends when my parents came in and that`s all started . My mother said that I shouldn’t been talking to any strangers and bla-bla-bla. I felt so embarrassed and rage on my parents .. And from that very moment , everything went worse. It started from very small things and snowballed to the enormous problem what we are having right now. And I don`t think that it`s because of the age differential, from they/mine perspective or so.It feels like a barrier between me and them.

Craig: I feel you , Richard , I really do . The problem what you were facing back then is that your parents don`t actually understand the difference between their time and our`s – or present. They still have an idea or stereotype that you may,and will, become as good as they are,despite the fact that we are not in their past anymore. They can`t give you all the freedom you want because you,as being a child , don`t know what`s right or what`s wrong , hence they should teach you what`s what.Even so, they should have stopped this sermons and became your parents slash teachers or mentors ,but not as your strict guardians.

Richard: Actually , maybe you`re right . Oh well. We can`t change the things now even though we do understand them now.

Craig : You know , some people believe that the name is giving you something as well , it could possibly build your character as well . Have you even thought about this , Dick? Some people are stubborn just because of the name ,which is a strange thing to think about .

Richard : I don`t think that I should blame or use my name as excuse , I like my name , Richard sounds very nice and I got use to it. Sometimes it`s kind of unusual when people use my short name some times , when I did something wrong or so . Oh well .

Jennifer: Alright , guys , the time is working against us but I hope we all and our listeners learned something from this.

 

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Glad to be back

I am sorry to have not been in touch sooner.

My life have got a couple of stops and some turns recently . I changed my phone and I got some problems with two-step  authentication . My sister got the job in Dartford ,which forced her to buy her 1st car(and the Cinderella`s story is about to begin) . I quit the job in the hotel and came work into a very nice place called “Smyth`s Toys” . Nice.. yes,it`s nice place regardless.The Team there is terrific .The kids are running here and there which energize me with the  positive energy , the customers wants to get some help .. and so forth .
I can`t say that this job is the job what I was dreamed about , but it is very nice place to begin your journey from.
As about my English and education .. I finished my ESOL Level 2 (I have no idea how (perhaps the higher power was involved in that)  and I started my GCSE course (Math and English) .
In terms of GCSE English , I think I`m doing great. On the last exam,I got 17 0f 20 ,which was a complete shock for me . They said I`m doing great and it scratched my ego . However, I think the next exam will be much difficult than that one.
We were asked to write whatever leaflet or podcast on the “Family Holidays” (or benefits of that) .
The whole class wanted to write the leaflet because it “could be easier” ,however,I felt that I could have a good use of my personality and writing techniques in order to write a good , interesting and creative podcast. I thought that I`m doing well , but it was rejected by my new tutor. He said that even though it was very entertaining and humorous , it still should be targeted on the audience and ,specifically, to the main topic.He also recommended me to write the leaflet.
Oh well .. I was forced to eat my humble pie and do what they say.

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Anyways, I wrote 3 essays altogether in order to please the tutor and tomorrow (God bless me) I will have the exam where I should re-write everything from my memory. Oh well..
So from now on , I think I will add a bit different “folder”(or tag differently) on here – English.Practice ,where I share with everything what I write for my GCSE English .
Yes, I know , it may be boring and so forth , so you may skip that if you want. But , hopefully , you may find it as entertaining as well .
A bit later , I will publish my podcast, I hope you enjoy it .

Pros and cons of sport.

We all are aware of the importance of sport,aren`t we?

When we talk about sport ,the space in our mind is  only for  positive aspects of doing sport activities,isn`t it ?For instance , it helps our body be fit , be strong , it also helps our blood system , we may become as an energetic person .It also may slightly change our character or behavior , inasmuch as we predominantly are forced to overcome new challenges ,such as loosing the weight or gaining a muscles ,and after that we passively were able to deal with a stressful situations in our life.

From my point of view , the sport as itself , give to us only a good things . It forces us to ask yourself the questions as :

1.What do I eat ?

That question puts your nutrition habits on the line – do we drink the alcohol drinks ? do we drink enough of water ? Does our body get the enough of vitamins or minerals and so forth. What kind of food do we eat? Is it mostly healthy or junk-food?

2.How do we spend our time ?

If you want to do any sort of sport activities , you must do it in groups (well,it`s very beneficial) .There you can spend more time with making friends,who would share your passion or a will,hence you should spend less time in front of your PC or TV,which ,lets call a spade a spade , is a very helpful and healthier .

3. What are we doing wrong?

That helps you to cover all the black spots into your organism or body system and ,furthermore, it helps you to rid of confusion in your own life.

We are not able to tell anything against the sport –  we do  need sort of sport activities in our life,would it be simple walk before the bed time or having a very good personal life. Either way , we are trying to do much fewer actions as we could . We,all mere mortal human,wants to spend less time but have a great effect, while only few of us puts a list of challenges as their motto.

Let`s talk about negative side of the sport,shall we?

In my humble opinion , there are only a few side-effects .

Firstly , when you want to achieve anything through doing sport-activities ,you should be self-motivated and should be a bit harsh to your own body.However , you may harm yourself easily if you will be too pushy , you literally drains all the juices from your body and forces it to make the changes into your body system.I can`t tell you anything specifically , but I know for sure – if your body isn`t strong enough for doing hard exercises .. well,better not to do so,my friend. You can get anything you want to – but be careful as well and slowly but surely you will get there.

Secondly ,I think many people don`t even realise what they really want to do,what is their wish or target. They can go and do the exercises without a joy ,without a passion , simply because they were told to do so . I think that is not right thing to do.If you don`t enjoy it , don`t waste your time on that , you can try to focus on any other side of your life instead .

Thirdly ,because the sport as itself can offer you loads of activities to do, it could be very difficult to choose what your heart/body is craving for .You may simply be lost in that ginormous amount of exercises all around the globe.It is the very difficult to make the right choice and you don`t want to make any mistake , do you? My advice to you is when you made up your mind , you need have a little pause just to make a small sign before you move any further . Better safe than sorry , my dear friend,better safe than sorry.

For a conclusion , I would like to say , before you make your first move into unknowns world of the sport, you shall think twice about all that .You need to wistfully opt the right activities which you will admire,think carefully ,meticulously .

Best wishes.

What if…

My tutor told us to write about “Is My life in England better the one you had in your country or the one you would have if you were there ?”.

My life in England.

Above all ,when I came to England [nearly] 2 years ago , it was a completely Something for me.A new culture,new people,a new way of living and also – a new way of thinking or understanding the people who surrounds me.

When you live your whole life in the country were you were born , it looks like you know everything about the world.Because your world is just that particular country and people who surrounds you,the people who you used to have near by yourself.You know the way how they think and what shall you expect from them – and vice versa . But when you come to completely new[for you] environment , you don`t know how to act,what to do.And it is something very new for you in contrast of “previous you”.Maybe that`s why people do like traveling a lot,because of the way how they see things- differently , because of the people who they meet,because of the beautiful views of this amazing world they can see, what literally could turn upside down the whole”you”.

When I came in England at the first time,I was like stunned,completely shocked by people around me,the way how politely they act,the bunch of smiley faces,I felt myself welcomed . When I came to Margate, I could not stop breathe in the fresh air from the sea.I could not stop devouring the information all around myself.It was a new world for me.And I felt that the boundaries of my  tiny and wild world were slightly pulled  away.

Thank_the_past_for_a_better_futureAt this very moment , I can`t tell that I have a boring life. I improve my English every here and now,I like to talk and cordially feel and share with something with any  good person , attentively listen them and try to help them as much as I can.I opt to be very fastidious in the way of choosing who I want to be near with or who I want keep the distance with. I speak my mind every time since I was 20 and I have no idea why should I stop doing that , albeit the fact that someone could name me arrogant or unnecessary rude.I could use the quote of Danny Glover from “Lethal weapon” – “I`m too old for this sheet” !I like the way how it works here – you can choose whether you want – work hard and get money or work less and have a siesta in between. At this very moment , I am studying English and working as a night porter (part-job) and,to be honest,I`m happy. Well,we all have our ups and downs , pros and cons but I don’t mean to sound like a crapehanger, because I am an optimist by nature- so why should I think negatively ? I happy with my life here,well, we always want to make the changes which brings [not necessarily ] us to better future , but generally speaking , I predominantly am a very happy person .

The small role of experience.

As you may know , I still corresponding to my ex-girlfriend and while we are talking , sometimes we do reminiscing about the time when we had been  together and she [almost every time] wants to point that out how wrong I was and here and then I absolutely submissively have to agree with her because now I understand when and where I have been mistaken. And she,nodding down,shows me that I can be wrong as well.Well,I could not see where was my fallacy without having her around. And here is my point, I think my life now is a way much better than I had before. Sometimes I can easily sit down in my chair and think peacefully without rushing somewhere and dealing with a bunch of problems every single moment,where is no piece but hard work only. However,having a peaceful life is also kind of trap , but let`s not talk about that today.

Imaginary future.

Let`s dive in a fantasy-world.Oh,beg your pardon , in MY fantasy-world. Let`s verbalize it – what would be/happen if I were in Latvia,here and now?

Let`s start from workplace – I think I`d go to prison.Well,to work in,obviously. After I was  served in Latvian Army , I  straight away went to prison to work in,where I had been working for about 8 years,hence my first though would be “let`s go back in prison”. By the same token , I would be trying to find anything where I could find the usage of my English.

At the meantime , I suppose, my relationship with my ex would be renewed ,it would be much easier for both of us to renew our old relationship instead of desperately search for the new ones.I think in a year,max two – we would get married and would have kids.I think we would assiduously trying to have 4 kids , because I want that and she aware of that  , but I am not sure that I can play a “boss-card” when I am not the one who will be forced to deal with all it.We would still live in a small town and still rent a flat.

But to finalize this part of the story , I can undoubtedly tell you that I wouldn`t be the same Sergejs as I meant to be in Latvia.

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Conclusion.

To be honest with you,I don`t want to go back to Latvia and there is a dozen reasons why.Russian have the saying – “A dog choose the place where is warmer,human – where is better”. By giving you that saying I wanted to say that I think I`m much better being here than there. I don`t really want to watch the documentary of my life in Latvia by having a few moments only ,which are glued consecutively – home,work,home,go out with gf,home,PC,game,work.. Yes,it should be a very boring life for me.Boring and aimless. But here,in the UK , I have much more challenges,I`m not saying that I hadn`t them there ,but..the quality of my current challenges is a way much worthwhile than the quantity of the small problems which I would have constantly. It is poignant thing to say,isn`t that? We are who we are and the only future could tell us the mistake has been made.

Throw it in a bin .

Today , I was watching a documentary about a guy who wanted to figure out “What one degree is?”. The whole story was about measuring the temperature and explaining what this degree is .

One of a men ,who the guy was speaking with , told “Disorder rules the world,destruction and disorder is the driving force of the universe,you need to understand that the energy is distributed in disarray, atoms, molecules – all located in a chaotic traffic and chaos gives impetus/momentum to all the processes in the world,hence it`s very useful to be in sadness and depression, they give a motive for action, cause changes shows that the world is getting worse”.

Albeit the fact that this particular documentary was about the science , the though that the chaos is in charge of the world – rigidly knocked me on the head.

Nowadays , the majority of people are very carrying ,which is not such a bad thing -don`t get me wrongly, but it is a very bad thing in case that the mankind is supposed to live their life,making a  tough decision , be “a king of the animals/primates”. And only by that way he/she [one of the mankind] can suck up the experience and “only the strongest can help,uphold those who are weak”.

I know , this subject is perennial and we never will be tired of talking about that.

But you know that feeling – something just was  pierced your mind with some knowledge and you go somewhere where you can put your thoughts on the paper.